I wish I could rename this blog ‘Navigating your 20s and trying to be OKAY’
But that wouldn’t work and let’s be honest I feel OKAY like half the time and the other half of the time I’m all ‘WHAT IS GOING ON, WHERE IS THIS LEADING TO, WILL I ALWAYS FEEL SO ANXIOUS AND STRESSED?!’
Let’s take a step back.
It’s me, Hilary. It’s been oh a wee bit since I’ve last blogged. I was so consistent and then I fell off the face of the Earth. Not literally, but then again that would have been an excitement in my life that would probably do me some good! And probably harm. But anyways.
I’m fairly, okay like 95% positive I’m way deep into a quarter life crisis and I’m not yet 25! What’s up with that?
Let’s recap. I lost my job at the end of May. Literally like a day or so before it would have been an official year. Like, really? OH LIFE. So flash forward and it’s nearly mid-August and I’m working part-time at a hometown bakery. Let’s just say, The last week and heck the last few months have been extremely stressful, anxiety producing, and I may have shed a few more tears than usual.
I am back in the job hunt. It’s unyielding and most often frustrating. My best friend has a full-time job, a good boyfriend and is now musing with the idea of marriage. And I’m like wait, what just happened? Why do I feel really really far behind so suddenly?
We were talking over lunch today and basically said how we’d look back someday and think to ourselves how it was supposed to be that way so we could get where we were supposed to go but I mean, it would be nice to have a little more reassurance that it really was going to be okay. Right? Yes. A hundred times yes.
So Hilary, 24 year old Hilary, nearly 25 year old Hilary, it will be okay. Let me repeat that. IT WILL BE OKAY. Yes, it will. You are so confused and stressed and worried right now when you should just live and love the best you can. You know the feeling you get on your nature walks when everything feels okay and makes so much sense and your head is so much clearer? Remember that feeling. Carry it with you when you feel the most anxious. (Also use less run-on sentences in your writing, but hey if you want to do it in blogging go for it. Cause that’s where you can.) Just keep reminding yourself it will be okay. Yesterday was yesterday. It’s gone. Today is a different day. And you know what? Tomorrow is a gift, and once it’s tomorrow, well then today will be yesterday and guess what? It will be okay. Just constantly tell yourself that and over time you will start to believe it. You’ll feel less burdened with so many feelings, you’ll feel lighter and more able to be happy for and with others.
It. will. be. okay.
Really. It will.